Seasonal.

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The summer stops to ask me if I want to be warmer
I say, "No."
It soothes into spring
I lie down in a flowerbed. I dream of him
Again.
Eras and worlds intertwine
Our fates erupt and converge
I dream of the stories I shall never live
I have never lived, yet. I haven't seen the world.
The flowers dry up and my eyes are heavy
How much can a girl sleep, after all?
It's already winter. No one asked me if I want to be cold
I sit up, shivering. No more dreams to unfold
The sun falls asleep on my skin
Soft and homely, like a friendly cat
I like the winter. I like this cold.
They who have known my heart
Arrive with buckets of sweets, I could cry
Overjoyed with the love I hold
I am so happy. I have new dreams to dream
A new spring. It's time to go.

Keep to Myself

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The wind whispers in my ear
It knocks against my window
The trees nod in agreement

I keep to myself

The sun shines warm and red
Blows me a kiss
Before it’s about to set
I sweat and I glow

I keep to myself

The neighborhood bursts into sounds
Everyday noises turning to music
The birds, the leaves
Clinking of utensils
I hum my favourite tunes

I keep to myself

The world moves and dances in my heart
I cannot keep to myself
You are moving and dancing in my heart
I cannot keep to myself
I will reach you
As you have reached me
I will love you
As you have loved me

We will keep to ourselves

We’ll weave a little tale for us
Or write a whole omnibus

And look for nothing else.

Fluid

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Today I don’t need to write
I am happy

I will
Rest my chubby fingers
Against the cool iron bars
Before my white painted windows
Rest my sad shaped shoulder
Against a wall which homes me
Rest myself

The rain sings so beautifully
It is beyond all writing
I am beyond all words

I can be a moldy green patch of earth
Who said I’m a girl?
My feet isn’t skin
They’re shells
And they’re beautiful

The rain falls like it knows
How to empty me
I am happy as I know
I am not only me

I am the rain
The iron bars
The window and the wall
I have never lived or never died
But I am alive and I’m singing

Today I don’t need to write
Because today I can feel
Today I can be
Today I can sing
What else do I need?

A song for everyday

I

I’m digging my nails deep into my flesh
For a treasure that was never buried
Neither a time capsule for lost memories
(Memories, which reappear as shadows every morning
Like a cobweb over my eyes, gone in the next blink
As I look up at the sun to confirm it’s a new day after all)

I keep moulding my form
Sandpapering furiously the veneer of my vessel
A glossed up eggshell a second away from breaking apart
And I keep hitting the soil of my skin
For the fresh splash
From my fountain of worth

All the roots I had planted in me
Are loosening into veins
They’re dropping out in the strands of hair I shed
I am rethinking all the words I have said
Or forgot to say
Scavenging for imprints inside my heart before it turns black
Tomorrow when I look up at the sun
All of this will be gone
Perhaps.

II

The sun shines down through the skin of air
I’m not the same vessel of thoughts
The senses in me are swirling up
I’ve learnt to feel,
An acquired taste it is;
I am so happily full of myself
That you, a cynic,
You, my past or my future,
Cannot touch my hair
I am here, I’m here, see!
My heart is softly beating and my eyes are bright
Today I am feathery brightness and glow
Today I’m here
And tomorrow I will be too.

A lover’s promise

Last night I held you in my arms
Your warmth felt like a thousand suns
You bared your heart right into mine
My breath just stopped, and so did time.

The words you spoke were songs to me
They calmed me like a lullaby
Your laughter rang like jingling bells
I gave in to your charming spell

You touched me and I dreamed again
I felt as free as pouring rain
Falling from up high above
Falling hard, for you, my love

I took a breath and smelled the sea
Your stormy soul was calling me
I lost my way among the waves
You found me and you saved the day

We locked our lips, a feast began
Of each delight that’s known to man
Fresh new buds bloomed within
An homage to Original Sin

You’re made of stardust and the sky
You’re the Beauty in my eyes
You’ve bared your heart right into mine,
I’ll be yours till the end of time.

The Man with Birds in His Lips

The words he spoke to me
Flew like birds,
They crossed fields and oceans
Rivers and lakes
But before reaching my city
Dropped dead before the gates.

I stood at my Palace of Wails
Wondering where the birds are
Until the wind carried with it
Bright red feathers.
I tried sewing them
To make them whole again
But all I could make
Was a crown.

Why does the Queen of Wails
Wear a bright red crown?
Whispers and rumours
Wildfire in the city
“Our Queen is changing”
The Wise Men nod their heads,
Commoners gossip and talk.

The next spring
I await his words again
But all I get is
A mass of rain-soaked feathers
In the red monsoon downpour.
So many feathers
So much pain
And I decided to sew again.
This time I made a dress.

“Your Highness
The city is concerned.
The change in you
Scares us all.
Do you not remember
Why you were born?”

I wrap myself in a grey shawl
A grey scarf wound around my head like a python
I tighten my jaw.

I remember,
How can I forget the curse
That befell this city?
The Wise Men had urged the Gods
And They made me out of Suffering.
I was to grow old in the Palace of Wails
I was not to smile nor speak
Or else the city will die.

Not smiling was easy
The Wise Men made that sure.

The city did not die,
Not those in power at least.
The common fools suffered;
They thanked my existence
Worshipped the Wise Men
Believing in all their lies.

I did not smile nor speak
As was my fate
Until the man with birds in his lips
Stopped at my gates.

He had looked at my soul
Read all my words
Which no one could hear.
My lips had curved into
A forbidden smile.
The Wise Men found out;
And the man with birds in his lips
Was sent far away.

I still waited for the red birds
To perch at my window sill.
Spring passed,
Monsoon too-
The dry winter arrived.
I had almost given up hope, when
On a cold winter night
One by one
A parade of red birds
Marched into my room through the window.

These birds are alive!
Was this happiness I felt?
Before I could know
The birds began to leave
One by one
The parade of red birds
Flew out.
Each of them had shed feathers on my bed;
It resembled a small red hillock.

This time I did not wail
I sat down to sew.
Not a crown, nor a dress-
I made two bright red wings.
I finally understood
I finally flew
To the man with birds in his lips.