Small talk

“How was your day?”
.
.
In the mornings
When my mother starts her day in the kitchen
And my father looks for the newspaper
All I want is an excuse.

An excuse to pause the day, even before it has begun.

“Halt!” I say to Mr.Time.
Mr.Time wears a suit and a tie
With glasses as thick as icecubes
Perched on his rigid nose.
He slaps me hard and shouts like a war general
“Yes,Sir!”
I come back to my senses.

The day goes on and on and on
Like a thriller movie in slow motion,
Devoid of background music.
Deja vu
Every moment a facsimile of some other one.

There’s a cadence to monotony
If you have the ear for it.
Sometimes I do, don’t you too?

Before long, I get lost
In other worlds freshly manufactured
Where facts don’t matter,
Mr.Time is banned,
And I am free.

But I’m no God, no Creator Almighty
My thinly framed bubbles of thoughts
Fade away like half-remembered memories
Oh so quickly
Poof! And I’m back again.
Nothing makes sense yet, but at least
I’m back to my senses.

Ringing voices vibrate in my ears
Boys grinning with their mouths wide open
Girls leaning onto each other
Tearing up into giggles.
The dusky sky and the dazzling streetlights
Coexist with different ideals of beauty
I keep my eyes open
For every sight.

We call it a day.
I make my peace with Mr.Time
He smiles at me like a benevolent captor
I smile back.
.
.
“My day was great, how was yours?”

The Man with Birds in His Lips

The words he spoke to me
Flew like birds,
They crossed fields and oceans
Rivers and lakes
But before reaching my city
Dropped dead before the gates.

I stood at my Palace of Wails
Wondering where the birds are
Until the wind carried with it
Bright red feathers.
I tried sewing them
To make them whole again
But all I could make
Was a crown.

Why does the Queen of Wails
Wear a bright red crown?
Whispers and rumours
Wildfire in the city
“Our Queen is changing”
The Wise Men nod their heads,
Commoners gossip and talk.

The next spring
I await his words again
But all I get is
A mass of rain-soaked feathers
In the red monsoon downpour.
So many feathers
So much pain
And I decided to sew again.
This time I made a dress.

“Your Highness
The city is concerned.
The change in you
Scares us all.
Do you not remember
Why you were born?”

I wrap myself in a grey shawl
A grey scarf wound around my head like a python
I tighten my jaw.

I remember,
How can I forget the curse
That befell this city?
The Wise Men had urged the Gods
And They made me out of Suffering.
I was to grow old in the Palace of Wails
I was not to smile nor speak
Or else the city will die.

Not smiling was easy
The Wise Men made that sure.

The city did not die,
Not those in power at least.
The common fools suffered;
They thanked my existence
Worshipped the Wise Men
Believing in all their lies.

I did not smile nor speak
As was my fate
Until the man with birds in his lips
Stopped at my gates.

He had looked at my soul
Read all my words
Which no one could hear.
My lips had curved into
A forbidden smile.
The Wise Men found out;
And the man with birds in his lips
Was sent far away.

I still waited for the red birds
To perch at my window sill.
Spring passed,
Monsoon too-
The dry winter arrived.
I had almost given up hope, when
On a cold winter night
One by one
A parade of red birds
Marched into my room through the window.

These birds are alive!
Was this happiness I felt?
Before I could know
The birds began to leave
One by one
The parade of red birds
Flew out.
Each of them had shed feathers on my bed;
It resembled a small red hillock.

This time I did not wail
I sat down to sew.
Not a crown, nor a dress-
I made two bright red wings.
I finally understood
I finally flew
To the man with birds in his lips.