Now

I imagine the sun settingflowingdropping into the crease of buildings
A mellow skyline, pink and rose and yellow and blushing
I imagine everyday beauty
I am inside a small room and I never go out.

My house is only two storeys high
My ambition no higher
I crave the softness that comes with smallness
All I taste is the gap I never even dream to remove someday
I often wonder what other dots in the web are doing
It glitches my mind and I get disconnected

I bet it’s beautiful outside
Even the high-rise residents can’t jog at their beautified parks
I wrap my arm around my pillow
Take a deep breath
I am herenowalwaysforever

I pick a movie to watch
The deadlines can wait
The dead lines aren’t waiting
They’re piling up at riverbanks
I’m still at home playingwatchingignoring a movie
I’m too afraid to murmur a premature thanks

I stare at the ceiling
My spotify is wailing
The only thing moving is the fan.

Living

I'm stretching my smile to cover my face
I'm blinking too, to punctuate your gaze

I'm learning to stay and not say no
Because I've learnt that I can't go

Not when death is alive and cold
Uninvited guest at our doors

I will stay and learn your steps
You will stay and hold my waist

Us against the world, so naive;
We kiss and love and stay alive.