toxic love – mimimusing

I wish you weren't flimsy
Like the newspaper bit I picked up and scrunched into a ball
And threw away
I wish I could kiss you and the stain would stay.
Your words are mineral oildrops
They perfume my hair
And damage it
I dig graves to look for suppleness and return with bare hands
Why couldn't you be of soft clay?
I'd sculpt every bit of you into a god
Give you everything I can imagine
I'd learn your favourite language and sing you songs
If you were sincere I would never have let you forget me.
You're not,
And you don't even know.
I wish you were everything you're not
Can't you see I'm tired of looking for him?
I kiss you and wish my lips were ash
I love you and I keep coming back
One day, one day you'll be him
Won't you?
I'll keep coming back
Until I find him. For once.
I write out my soul onto your ragged paper heart
You give it away next morning to ten other women
I write myself onto you again
And again
I kiss you for others to wipe it off
You stay a stone statue with words too perfectly carved
I stay a girl looking for love
Until I find it
I wait
I see through you but I can't not stay.

I was playing with words and he got stuck in them I knew the craft of meaning making He was too blind With river eyes and saltbeds of skin He never asked me why I then played with a gun and he got killed almost I relished the skill of slaughter He was too kind, again He held my wrist not to wring it Asked himself "why did I bring it?" The gun was thrown away I took him to the bedroom and locked him inside, I was bored Closed the doors on his face, so cute Why didn't he hate me then? I wish he were a brute I tossed the keys into the fireplace Read a book for fun Ended up breaking in through the window Our life has just begun.

Tag: toxic love

Flimsy

Till death do us part