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I try so hard to be happy. My hands tremble, I want to be firm Thunderstorms have left behind debris I stand with a flower (which you didn't bring me) And I try so hard to be happy. I etch lines inside my mind It bleeds, I smile; The bleeding stops, it clots What a waste of time And another day goes by I stand with the flower Anxious It shall wilt soon. If the bleeding resumes Will the flower stay alive? Does it know, I try so hard to be happy? I try so hard to smile. II I hide in her room She breaks my bones I cope with her losses, she sobs with her soul Isn't it funny? How you love me so well I've been here forever and I see you fail We're reeling in memories And images conjured Forehead to forehead With nowhere to go. III Once it's all said and done Do I fumble for your hands? I have done what I can, and I lost I always think of the worst. My dreams are clouded again She laughs at me, cold He texts me "bye." I misread it: "hello!" And then I wake up, with nowhere to go. Why do I have to remember All the lies we shared? Friends come and go, But some of them stare at me Even as I die I never could look away, Fixated by their eyes.
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